AUTHOR: QueenJoya TITLE: Mental Block DATE: 3/06/2006 11:42:00 AM ----- BODY:

Lately I have battling a mental block...some refer to it as writer's block. It's gotten so bad that I only write in my journal may 3 times per week. I guess I'm still disappointed about my previous journal. I mean the floods came through, the journal survived, I had it in my hand put it down to get something else forgot to pick it back up, and when I returned on another trip to redeem and salvage my personal belongings it was gone. Why would someone want my journal. I mean those were my personal thoughts and seeds God planted in me. That journal held my personal battles with my demons in it. Why would someone want that? I'm not running for government so you can't blackmail me. My future husband knows all my dirty dark little secrets so you can't use it on me there. I just don't understand what happened. Anyway I'm all blocked up right now and I guess it comes from all of the different things going on in my life right now. Nothing bad all good things, everyday my life is undergoing a change. I got into a car accident last night...they messed the car I was driving, it rendered me dizzy and I have had a headache all last night and I still have it, I've taken at least 10 advil since last night popping them three at a time so when I sign off its off to the doctor I go. Ohhhhhh I admitted to myself that I am in love with food! It's a wonderful love affair that I'm putting into perspective and in doing that I will be able to beat this weight thing. Dammit I love cornbread and mustard greens and fried chicken and gumbo and fried catfish and barbecued anything! As a matter of fact I'm serving mustard greens and cornbread today with fried catfish. Yes I am still on weight watchers I gained 4.8 pounds last week so I was kinda disappointed but I hadn't exercised any...Just too tired. Anyway this is a new week and I am back on track and I am eating my down home meal but just in moderation. Small portions and I'm satisfied. I am on my way to becoming a home owner in Alabama... I am on my way to becoming a wife in Alabama... I am on my way to becoming a student at the University of Alabama... I am on my way to becoming a full resident of the State of Alabama...WOW Anyway just rambling because I haven't posted in a few days. I hope you all enjoyed your weekend. I am bored outta my mind at work! Anyway I have a headache so bye *waving*

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